Gideon :)

Ok, I haven't posted in a while because I've been very, very busy. I'm doing pretty good and I have an eventful weekend coming up. First, tomorrow evening Chad and I are celebrating our 1 year anniversary :) I think it'll be fun, but I won't spoil the surprise by saying what I have planned. I'll write something on here about that after tomorrow. Then, Saturday night I'm going to the Police concert!!! I just found out today that a friend of mine has an extra ticket, so I'm so in! I'm pretty excited :)

Last weekend Chad and I took our friends' baby, Gideon, out for some fun at the park so our friends could get some unpacking done. Here are some pics from the outing. I posted them on Facebook already, so I'm guessing a lot of you will have already seen these, but for those who don't have a Facebook account, here's Gideon :)

The Darkness

I really feel like there's a darkness that's infiltrating the lives of many people these days. It creeps up on them and suddenly they're being strangled and are looking for a way to breathe again. I want to help them so much, but I have no idea what to do. For some reason people seem to think I know what to do, but I don't. People are calling me, emailing me, talking to me, looking for answers and I'm wondering what makes them think I know. However, I am thankful that they are reaching out to someone. Perhaps I have more in me than I realize and that I do have something inside of me that can help them push back the darkness. Is what's inside of me the reason why I'm not experiencing the darkness myself? Probably. I tend to resent having to be strong all the time, but perhaps I should just embrace it and be thankful that I have access to strength for myself and for others. I just wish I could shake the ever-present feeling that I'm not doing enough.

Then there's the dream that won't leave my head lately, and I'm wondering if it's related to the darkness. I'm in a garden and I'm trying to save the flowers that the wind is trying to steal from it, particularly a white rose. Someone behind me is yelling to me to hold on as the wind pulls my arm over the fence in an attempt to steal the rose out of my hand. I hold on to it so tightly that oil pours out from the rose all over my hand. If I can hold on to that rose tightly and for long enough, maybe I can help stop the darkness that tries to steal their lives. Maybe I can.

Sorry for the cryptic post. I just needed to get that off my chest. Your prayers are much appreciated.

Say Something

Ok, I'm sorry, it's been a long time since I last posted. My sincere apologizes. I will blame it both on the addictive nature of Facebook (oh so addictive!) and my insane level of busyness (oh so insane!). Anyway, I know I complain enough about other people not posting for whatever I consider to be long periods of time, and I don't want to be a hypocrite, so I have to post something. Anything. ANYTHING!!! As you can tell, I am desperate to post and have very little to say. I suppose I could write about what's been going on, but I'm pretty sure it'll be boring. Oh well, here goes nothing (really).

I've been working a lot. I took on a part time job on top of my full time job in an effort to get ahead in life, so it's been keeping me pretty busy. It's only an extra 10 hours a week, but I'm really feeling it. There are lots of things to do and people to see and I have to say no a lot more now than I used to. Being the social person that I am, I don't like it. However, I do understand that it's necessary sometimes to just suck it up and do what you need to do first and socialize second, and for me it's that time in my life. Some would probably argue that this time should've come a lot earlier, and they would probably be right. Oh well, better now than never :)

I'm busy with other things, including church stuff and helping my sister with chemistry, but I won't get into that right now because I don't feel like it. Oh, I would like to say that I have a new computer at work and I'm mostly loving it, except for Vista's compatibility issues. It's actually pretty annoying. Why would you put out a program that doesn't work with most things? Lame. Oh well, it looks nice, especially on my 19" widescreen monitor :) I know, I'm a nerd. It's ok. I've come to embrace my nerdy, strange nature. I often say we should all be nerds about something :)